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so see me there lovelies.  I screwed up here.

Exams are like here. Tuitions are a killer. Seriously. It takes up the whole day. Rushing from one place to another.And the kids.. Oh man. I can see the tiredness on their faces. The teachers gave them a mountain of homework and they asked me questions about their homework which cuts time into my teaching and it ends up with me not having teach them properly. And then i will be displeased because the parents will nag nag nag. Oh man sometimes i wish i could just stuff carrots down their throat so that they will be mute.


I get damn lethargic easily which even makes my mood foul. I hate it. Absolutely HATE it.

i feel tired.i think i wanna give up already.so so tired.im so sorry.

my baby is sleeping
she look oh so fine
i like it when i snuggle close to her
baby i love you

Am i doing the right thing?

Qiao Yuan I have really missed you.

Things are crazy shit now.
But nothing anyone can say
Can help.

Forgive me for what I am to do.

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Cyriva raya was damn fun!

No Nisa
You may not fall for that person.
Not ever.
Never!

I keep telling myself that.

I cannot help it.

I'm painstakingly removing all the unglam photos of me from my halls. My club is coming over tomorrow. And i still need to remove them again next week, for my darlings will come and confirm chop-stamp disturb me *looks over at slenger babi Van**stare hard*.

Do you have this feeling :

You feel happier when you're with someone when you know you are gonna lose something very soon.

I do. I really do and sometimes when i think of it i feel really sad too. Like super sad. Then i'll feel happy again. I don't know. Weird huh. I'm tired though. These few months have been a hell of crazy emotional rides. Okay i'll explain. I feel really happy and at the same time I feel so sad. It's like the happiness is making me sad? sometimes it hurts so much i don't know what to do.Hahah. No idea. Figure that out! The paradox of life is sometimes a pain the ass.

oh and i suddenly have the urge to hug people. I mean those i know. I mean those i love. Its crazy. and i wanna hug but not let go. hahaha!! merepek i know. and i have to not hug. and look the other way. okay... i'm being mental.

oh i got sick the other day. and was sent for observation. damn pathetic. i din get to see my kids on their last day. arghhhh!! so sweet seh they all send me cards n smses.

to the sweetest person:
this person likes to disturb round short people.She dedicates her life to tripping me. Irritates the hell out of me sometimes and enjoys the moments. and i have no idea why i love her so much. haha.

eh this post is damn random.

I think all the suay things keep happening to me.

Oh man now i just wanna leave everything behind.

I feel like giving up now, well now its the most frequent thought.


bleah.

please note: I do not intend to divulge anything about the cab driver except for what he had made me feel. These are all my thoughts and i have the right to it. This is my journal and if anybody here feels offended i am terribly sorry. This is my private space which you have agreed to read on and not comment otherwise. This is where i write freely expressing my moods, feelings and thoughts. So obviously it was written biasly so you may choose not to believe it.  I do not want to be mixed up with any government authorities or any authorities for that matter. If anybody who has agreed to these terms, then please read on.



Okay lah eh. That day i was like so effing tired already so nurul and i decided to cab to BPP to have starbucks while we mark our never ending worksheets and what nots. So after the dreaded 1 and a half hour lesson we cabbed down to BPP.

This was when a 15 min journey became 15 year journey. Like seriously. We couldn't wait to get out of the freaking taxi.

School is a secret

Cab driver : male
Cab driver  has a son.
Mission of the cab driver: To get his son a wife.

Victims: Nisa & Nurul

Nurul and i was talking about the SA2 papers we handed out to the students. And whether or not our class is able to cope with the examinations when the cab driver interrupted us.

" So you ladies are teachers? Wow you guys go home late?"
So we were saying yeah night classes and all. Blah blah.

So after that he was saying about the kids nowadays and all. Well nurul was enthusiastic la.. Replying him and all. I was slouching at the back of the cab. Then he suddenly talk about his son. And i was like ok... another proud parent and what not. So he told us about his son and where he work and what he worked as.The next question was " how you girls interested with my son?" i was like wth lah eh.. nurul and i kept glancing at each other la. Then he started asking us for our numbers... he say you girls can give me your numbers.. i'll pass my son and ask him to call you. I'm like omg...

his son was under 25 years of age. So i mean hello the guy still have lots of time la. Please man. And we're like only 20. wait.. im not EVEN  20. So he was asking us for our numbers for like about 4 mins. then he gave up and asked if we were attached. I was like on the spot get go said yes i'm attached. Then nurul said that she has someone that she likes... So he went to tactic number 2. So do you have any single friends? I'm like thiking no way im giving my frens to you crazy man. Then nurul jokingly said maybe restria and feezah . SHE SAID THAT TO Me. However, he quickly remarked that his son was not to be made a fool. I was like.. -.-" hello you are already making a fool outta him by asking your passengers whom you only have like 15 odd minutes with. Seriously la. then he asked for our frens number n all.. so nurul and i was like dun worry your son sure have gf already... [ at this point i was thinking maybe he has no girls cos hes gay? well who knows?] Then he say NO. I KNOW MY SON. WE ARE LIKE BEST FRIENDS.  -.-" whatever la eh. suker hati seluar dalam ko la [ taken from nu]

SO after this... he doesnt wanna back down, he started asking about our zodiac signs. Im like wth... Talking world sia this guy. Then he asked nurul first [ by this time i cant be bloddy bothered.][ anyway it was nurul he showed the pic to... so muahaha.. had his eyes on her?] nurul told him she was a taurus. then he said something unexpected " woah! a bull. You guys are wild [ well something along that line la] " i was like wtf wtf... and tried so very hard not to laugh. Then after asking nurul and all he turned his attention to me. I was like " oh i'm a capricon"

guess wat he said?

" oh capricon are selfish and get jealous over matter easily" I'm like okay.. the selfish part i can understand abit...ABIT ONLY... however he kept pressing over those two points. Im like okay when the hell am i selfish to the max la.. im always sharing sometimes when im in a bad mood den my selfishness will be shown. The part where i cannot take it is that he was going on and on about jealousy. ok... can someone tell me when the hell have i been jealous?! and he told us that i get jealous over small things and what not. Im like wth is this guy trying to say.. so i just kept my mouth shut la and rolled my eyes.. nurul was like okay.. and looked at me with her wide eyes...


seriously man. he is crazy.[ again this is what i think] We were sooo relieved when we got out of the cab.


please be reminded that you ave agreed to the terms and conditions above. have a nice day people.

I feel good! Nanananananah! I knew that I would! lalalalalala! So good! Oh yeah !

I finally shitted la seh!! After one day of not shitting! Oh man. Don't you feel weird when you don't shit for 1 whole day? I do. I shat alot today. I enjoy shitting the crap outta me! Oh yeah !Oh yeah!

You guys probably don't know why I am posting this up. I shall tell you. I shall talk WORLD with you....

1) I have to be serious when I am working. I need to contain my thoughts since the young ones are easily influenced by LITERALLY anything I say. Which is very ANNOYING.

2) I am surrounded by kids and with no one to joke with is very very bad for me. Why? you ask. BECAUSE since I am strict, i don't smile often which means I'm adding more age to my current age. Which is really really bad. If I don't joke, i'll not smile or laugh which contributes to the age thingy. Therefore, I always disturb my dear Miss Nurul Huda Bte Yazid to relieve these stress. Cause disturbing her makes my day much much bearable.

3) When I find things funny in School, the other teachers don't. Age Gap far too wide.... =[[[

4) I don't have anybody to disturb.... i feel like poking people. But if i poke students anyhow they might think sexual harassment.. I don't wanna go court.=[ And i don't think the older teachers would like me poking them. I mean looking at their skin

5) I miss talking crap. I can talk crap on and on. I think that is why i need to crap daily so it won't be many many crap.

After rereading whatever i listed down, it still does not explain why I'm it posting up. Ahh wells...

Just read la.. Talking world what... no need to be on point. Muhahaha.

i enjoy shitting =]]

oh oh my emoticon... those r not shits... those are chocolates..

Sometimes I surprise myself. You guys should know how i don't really fancy kids. However, today was an exception. We had some kind of a game session in school. So we were in this field somewhere in Singapore [ the bus driver brought us and I was too lazy to ask the teacher where we were heading to.] So games started and I was searching for a tree to shelter me from the scorching sun.

A primary two boy, head towards me and asked " Ms Nisa, where is the toilet? I need to pee. Can you follow me?"

Ok. At that particular moment, I was like woah this kid damn cute and agreed without hesitating. Then he did something which i did not expect. He held onto my hand as we went to the toilet which was way way far. On the way we strike a conversation about how his classmates wanting to win the race.

Go toilet - return safely.

Then somehow or rather, students from the other class asked me to bring them to the washroom. I became a day care nanny. -.-" So much for hating kids huh. I was nice la!! OMG. Nurul would die rolling on the floor laughing. Then the teachers were like, " Hey thanks, you're much appreciated [ cos they cant bring the whole class to the toilet. They had to take care of the whole 40 kids.] "

i didn't mind bringing them to the toilet cos the place is air-conditioned beside the field. At the end of the games today, I thought to myself. I would never have volunteered myself to do such things at all. Why did I do that? More specifically, What made me do that? And while i was thinking these things, a teacher came up from behind me and the first sentence she chose to speak to me was,

" Wow. You're a great teacher. I'm sure you'd make a good mum!" With enthusiasm.

my reaction -__________________________________-"|

I was like... AHHHHH your head la! I didn't even have the chance to rebut that sentence as we were called to the meeting grounds. I think working in school and mixing with kids is SIGNIFICANTLY changing my very being. How now brown cow?

I've been coughing for weeks. This is my third week if I am not wrong. The medicine is so not working.. now my phlegm in my throat is the colour of golden yellow. The stupid medicine is running out la!!Goodness. Its disgusting. I feel disgusted at the thought of my food sliding down the same blueks path. Now I have fever and mild Flu.

Yey to the virus and bugs! I think the doctor sucked to the core. I told him before my cough and flu normally takes very long. Still give me normal medicine. Stupid seh! Take money away! tsk tsk

PSLE is coming and parents have been so kan chiong until dunno what. I'm so tired. They demand lessons. Now i have no social life. Seriously I don't. I get tired easily cos half my energy everyday is spent coughing non stop. I have no appetite. I get moody and cranky real easy these days. And i have been rejecting my friend's offers to go out just to catch up some rest. I feel bad.

Anyways, I got a new Samsung Omnia! Muahah! I so love the phone!!

This situation is so ridiculous.

There are people out there who wants me to open up to them. Seriously?

The reason i don't bother opening up to you is cause you aren't there. Well you say you are but i don't see you there. You think you know me but the fact that you do things to irritate the hell out of me obviously shows otherwise. You say sometimes I need to compensate with the restrictions given. Seriously. Stop right there. You're not my boyfriend. Why are you even giving out restrictions? Boot camp? Go die. I have friends. Guys yes. Obviously. So should I not let you see the girls who are always there for you and all? Whatever eh. Nonsense. I don't see the logic. And you say I'm immature? Ironic.

I need to stop running away. Really now,  if the world is actually a perfect one i won't. Too bad its not perfect aye? How does not having a boyfriend means running away? Huh?! I'm afraid to commit? Your bloody head! I'm not. I just can't stand the way your immaturity hits the peak and making THE highest record in history. You sulk at the slightest things. I'm not the romantic type. I don't do mushy stuff. Well sometimes I do if I'm perfectly comfortable with the person.

Your maturity level contests to a 3 year old boy whose bragging about who has the biggest scar. Seriously. Don't bother tagging. Be thankful that I've actually set an entry to answer your doubts about your immaturity level. Feel free to go to help sites to refer to your control-freak personality and immaturity-ness. It helps. If not you should just visit a shrink. Well that is if he doesn't throw you out or prescribe you attend a pre-school class for 2 years.

And if he does, you should be thankful for having another chance at building your foundations in socializing and maturity level. I hope it works out well for you, for you need it the most. If you and your friends who find this post untrue, please visit the website , idontgiveadamnaboutwhatyouthink@whatever.com.

Okay so actually i knew where that selenger babi went la. She went bangkok which she told me dunno when but din specify dates. So if forgot.

Anyways..To all teachers teaching my kids in ********* primary, you people better put in more effort! your students are really weak and the way you people teach are wrong! Selenger. Now i have to put in super much effort so that they can pass.. they failed the mock test i gave them today.

Arghh. i hate irresponsible teachers you know. I don't really like kids but seriously if they need help i will give to my best of abilities. I seriously hate irresponsible teachers ah. I don't wanna say much cos who know i might get into trouble since singapore has such kpo people. Whatever. this entry won't be in good english like my previous few.


I miss many many people these few days like my secondary school friends, i hope they are in the best of health. To my beloved club members i hope you guys are doing well and republic friends...we shall meet up soon sorry i have been keeping you waiting. Haha. Anyways to all NS guys out there..please don't die. Don't try acting macho n what not ah! Cannot then take a break. I still want to see you POP strong and alive!!

hello you
i've missed you so
it's sad that you choose it to be this way.
you shouldn't have made me choose.

Right now.

I don't know where my

SELENGER BABI VANESSA SOH QIANYI

went for a holiday. Thanks for not telling.

Hmpftttt!!!

Okay. I had a discussion with nurul on several occasions about whether I am to have kids when I get Married

[ well this is to say IF I get married]

No. I do not want to have kids.
Why you might ask?

1) You have to stop work and take leaves for check ups and maternity leave

2) You have to carry them for about 9 months

3) When they finally get out of your womb, they scream.-.-"

4) They are noisy, hungry, your sleep-time absorber, attention seekers, they poop alot so that makes them smelly.
if you are gonna say that your HUSBAND can help. Yeah like real. They SAY ONLY. If its not in Black and white i doubt they will do it. And IF you can find husbands who will do it you are really REALLY WAY LUCKY.

5) Have you any idea that a baby will cost alot. You have to get pampers,a cot, milk bottle, funny little toy things so they won't wake you up. The water bills that are gonna rise cos you have to clean their poop.

6) Since you feed them and they do not exercise they will be heavy. When you go out you cannot carry them fer long as you will tire. so you will need a stroller. Imagine you pushing the stroller with a baby on it. How to go shopping?!!! If you say u can put it at your parents house I'm going to whack you. Firstly the baby is your responsibility and now you are going to dump it at your parents house? woah and you ask me why don't you get a baby. SERIOUSLY?! -.-" Secondly, your parents took care of you and your siblings. come on give them a break! You want to make them do that all over again? Thirdly, when you push a stroller in a crowded place you will hit people! Definately hit people and you have to keep apologizing -.-" SUPER WAY MA FAN! And you have to be careful of where you push it. You might it the things on display. You say BE CAREFUL?!
YOUR HEAD!!! ITS CROWDED REMEMBER?!!!

By the way people. this is just when the kid is being a baby. Not yet toddler. -.-"

When they are toddlers they will ask for things that they know they shuldn't have.
eg EXCESSIVE toys,sweets,chocolates,games.

And please be reminded by the time we have kids Singapore is soooo high tech. Thus the games that they ask won't be like out time. They will as for PSP, PS4/5/6 i don't know? WII 2/3/4 so yeah the list goes on.

Again you will need a very rich husband/ a good job which is easy and pays high or you are a super bloody rich person. And if you are not, both of you will have to get a job. Which MEANS that you won't be there when your child grow up. Trust me when you get back from work all you think about is to wash up, get some time alone and sleep.

When the kids grow older. Then you have to worry about the school which your kids get into. Must save money for their education blah blah blah. Eh the list goes on lah eh.

And if i do get a kid. I would be super hysterical. I will be like omg... my career is dead. And i think i will be depressed cos i don't believe in abortion.Sighs. So i was thinking of cutting my tubes. hahaha!

But hey I MAY CHANGE MY MIND. =]]

prolly one kid would be more than enough. Then i'll get vanessa, lisha, shu, al, kin, feez, ami, res, nurul to get kids ... then my kid can mingle with them? I don't know. Hahaha!

Yes. Envy. One of the 7 Deadly Sins.

I am sitting down setting maths paper for my Primary six students. Seriously i have been going at it since morning. MORNING OK?! You people know how important mornings are to me. They are like my Vitamins and what not lah eh.

So i was getting really bored. Like seriously fed- up with work. I decided to sms some people.

Karyn: she's eating at the dunno wat shop eating deserts with her aussie friends.
-okay fine. eat with them.hmpftt-

Ian: Playing bowling with his friends as he is going to NS next week.
-fine.. i'll let you off for now-

Van: Ice skating at jurong Entertainment centre
-okay by now i was damn envious and irritated with the work to the max-


WHY AM I BEING SUCH A NICE TEACHER? WHY CAN'T I LET THEM JUST ROT??

Because:  Their marks are so pathetic i could cry a thousand days. And i want these Primary Six to get out of their schools and be a better person.

I have no idea if the things i do is gonna work but i hope it does. Cos i'm putting alot of effort into IT. 

ALOT OKAY! MANY MANY LOTS OF WORK!

Science is a killer though. I have just finished maths. Now is the Science turn. I hate to do open ended questions. they are the hardest. and the studens better give me proper answer not like the previous students ah!


Nisa is seriously unsure where she wants to go now. She is so tired and the kids... aiyai...

Okay wanna know why i'm still doing this nonsense for my students? Cos when they joke and ask me questions in class i feel good. And I have company when i'm with them.

Teaching is nice i think but sometimes you just feel like vomiting blood.I wonder whatever happened to all the teacher my class bullied. I think i'm getting retribution. But then again they don't bully me. HAHA! I just hate the paperwork and the worksheets and the what nots. So ma fan!!! And markings!! OMG! oh and my markers are running out of ink. Damn!

ok.. now back to doing Science. Help me someone!
ps; i think the song im listening to now is kinda contradictive.

Individualistic Doer (ID)

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Individualistic Doers are self-assured and very independent persons. They are quiet and realistic, very rational, extremely matter of fact persons. They strongly cultivate their individualism and enjoy applying their abilities to new tasks. But they are also very spontaneous and impulsive persons who like to follow their sudden inspirations. Individualistic Doers are good and precise observers who register everything which goes on around them. However, they are not so sensitive as regards interpersonal relations and are surprised when they occasionally rub someone up the wrong way with their direct and blunt manner. They are not particularly fond of obligations; but if you give them space, they are uncomplicated, sociable and cheerful individuals.

Individualistic Doers enjoy challenges - action and the odd kick are simply part of their life. They love tempting fate and many people of this type have risky hobbies such as skydiving or bungee jumping. This also applies to their workaday life. Individualistic Doers are in top form in critical situations; they can grasp situations, make decisions and take the necessary steps extremely quickly. Hierarchies and authorities impress them very little; if a superior is not competent, they will have little respect for him. Individualistic Doers like to take on responsibility. They have a marked sense of reality and always find the most suitable and expedient solution for a problem. They resolve conflicts openly and directly; here, they sometimes lack tact but are also very good at taking criticism themselves.

As friends, Individualistic Doers are loyal and devoted; they only have a few friendships but many of them last a lifetime. People enjoy talking to them because of their optimistic attitude to life and their ability to listen. However, they prefer to talk about mutual interests and hobbies rather than about theoretical or philosophical issues - they are not tangible enough for them. They need a lot of freedom and time to themselves in love relationships but, at the same time, they are also very tolerant towards their partners. It happens very seldom that Individualistic Doers fall head over heels in love. They are far too rational. They prefer to pick their partner on the basis of mutual interests and preferences which they want to share with that partner. Individualistic Doers are not particularly fond of effusive outbursts of emotion. They prefer to prove their love by their actions and expect the same of their partner. Whoever wishes to tie an Individualistic Doer to himself needs a lot of patience. It takes some time before this personality type is willing to get involved with another person.

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, practical, logical, spontaneous, adventurous, resolved, independent, fearless, loyal, analytical, realistic, optimistic, interested, quiet, curious, circumspect, individualistic, action-loving, venturesome, cool, dispassionate, reserved, skilful, confident, independent, communicative, down-to-earth

These subjects could interest you

travel, nature, hiking, cars, model making, gardening, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual matters, music, literature, writing, strategy games, politics

i find this really true. =] taken from izzatte's blog. muahhah

I feel extremely spastic right now.

I felt like baking these few days so i got all my ingredients the previous day. Or so I THOUGHT.

Strawberry Banana Muffins.

I have no idea how I could have forget the most important ingredients, strawberry and banana. Seriously the selenger-ness reached sky high man.Seriously!

Okay so I went to Sheng Shiong Supermarket at Ten Mile Junction. I've never been there by anything other than cabs and cars. So I wasn't really sure how to reach there by train/LRT.

Nisa's Journey Part 1.

I knew there was a need to transfer to another service LRT when I reach Bukit Panjang. So I switched. Its one station to Ten Mile Junction. it's not suppose to be long but it was because of this guy who was standing infront of me. Like DIRECTLY infront of me.

He had his fly open. And as much as I did not want to look at it, it was staring straight at me. [i saw the colour of his boxers.]Well sort of? Anyway he was reading Pride and Prejudice. Like seriously? And he had cool shades and polo ralph shirt. Just okay looking. But the fact that his fly is down ...such a turn off.

sms van.

me: shuld i tell the guy infront his fly is open?
van: don't want luh.so paiseh.wahat are you doing out?make muffins:|haha
~ the rest of the conversation is private~

Blueks! [ i know some of you are dying to laugh AT me.]

To all guys out there could you please check your fly before going out?

So reached Sheng Shiong. The sister was already there. Bought the stuffs. i double checked every ingredient.

Nisa's Journey part 2

Bought the stuffs. Waited for the LRT for a freaking 20 mins. -.-" Seriously.They should just die.
I , the smartest of all have my selenger babi days too..

From Ten Mile stop then there is another stop which you are to alight at and change over.
So I said to my sister,

me: eh we wait uh the whole thing will turn one big round right?
sister: i don't know.
me: yeah la i think so. lets wait ah. got seats anyway.

So we sat... and we sat. 1 whole round already.

"Passengers going towards Choa Chu Kang please alight and transfer to another train."

The moment I heard that. I feel like kicking myself. Okaylah super dumb i know. I cannot stand my dumbness sometimes.

I'm eating the bananas that i just bought and the strawberries now. I'll do the muffins after I finish getting over my dumbness and my selengerness.

I feel BORED all the time. I wonder why. Seriously.

I can feel bored when I'm watching movies.
I can feel bored when I'm playing games.
I can feel bored when I'm surfing the net.
I can feel bored when I'm working.
I can feel bored when I'm eating.
I can feel bored when I'm chatting.
I can feel bored when I'm with so many people.


Weird thing is why am I even bored when I'm around people? Ridiculous right? I think so too but i just feel bored. Nothing. I repeat NOTHING interest me anymore. I'm even bored when I'm shopping.

I guess I'm bored with life.

Since school ended for me, I became bored.

Hi. My name is Bored.
Pleased to meet you.
Are you Interesting?
No.
I don't think so too.
Goodbye.

Dear Interesting
I'm hoping to meet you soon.
When are you gonna drop by?

Do you understand what I'm trying to tell you?